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/8:56 PM

i dun consider wad-u-gona-read-soon as an advice. most probably ur gona take it as a cliche essay or a reminder tt's gona fade from ur mind soon cus nothing in blogs r ever to be taken seriously other than those hu u care for... but put everything behind u now if u realli wan to read... if not forget bot reading tis.

im talking about walking towards success. sounds familiar rite... jus lyk those books on the shelves on self-improvement. but we hardly tend to take the time to understand, or even touch those. i get pissed very easily when i see other people behaving extremely stupidly... u noe lets say there r two pple... one hu works n strives, determined, towards success and the other hu does the least effort but takes the time. some are gona find me eccentric cus i'd be pissed at the former. whilst u tink u understand n yes u do partly, we dream, strive towards our dream n when we reach it, we feel a sense of accomplishment den we ask ourselves if we culd dream summore or if we haf gone the wrong way for the past 40 years. Lyk one man... gets stuck on the minefield... he dreams he culd get out of it. he strove towards his dream n sumhow he managed to get out only to find himself in north korea where he was captured...he did feel a sense of success but the correct success? u may tink it was because he dint haf foresight but actually ure very wrong. it has nothing to do wif foresight at all. read on. in another way u culd put it: i get pissed when pple fail to see it my way or copy other pple to gain a short reality of fame contributed by other pple... n yes i agree n my way was never universally correct cus at tis time u'd b rebelling against me for everyone has their own ideals n i shuldnt haf put tis down so strongly but if i was strong bot my ideas den wad can u do...but i did sumthing. i tried to put myself in other pple's shoes look thru other pple's eyes n i wuld do almost anything to b able to understand... but not everyone of cus... n in the trail of curiousity i often mix my emotions in along the way. i hesitate cus i understand too much n too little at the same time... n den u ask wad r u supposed to achieve den? how bot achieving success wif urself first... i culd c the pure difference between sumone hu seeks for success, money n fame. attractive shortcuts. and another person with a sense of self but also seeking for success, money n fame. in fact most pple culd sense it if uve achieved a sense of self. 2 chairman rose up to their state of wealth by pure diligence n dreams. one has a sense of self, the other blindly rose to his position thru hard work. the former was loved by his employees the other jus culdnt figure out wd was so wrong bot his life wad he dint understand n den he took a lot of time n pain to understand but he culd haf understood it better early in his days. but after tokin so much bot sense of self rite... wad is it? its success wif self. nt letting urself get meddled with in an unmaterialistic aim. well this sort of thing u got to figure it out for urself nt onli use ur head but also use ur heart to feel. when u feel right doesnt mean ur going in the right direction tt will bring u to wad ur inner consciousness n every kind of other consciousness realli want but if achieving success wif self is everything there is den ur rite if u say tis person is selfish. cus no one can live alone, my teacher once told me n it took me quite awhile to accept tt cus im too rebellious? den after uve understood the way of life n not blindly striving for fame wealth or anything lidat, go ahead n strive wif ur work. ull find it easier not cus ur motivated by a beautiful future but now for the sake of accomplishing self-worth. n now u cant actually even use the phrase "for the sake of" cus ur already halfway thru ur life's meaning, separate from the rest of the world hu tells u "for ur future la...","wif money ur going to lead a good life.easy, sensual and every desires comes along complete with it.","cus u mus be real u noe... we're living in reality. dun listen to those idealists"... tts when u lose ur innocence. u've got to strive between being an idealist and a realist. n even when u've done doing so, ur still far from it cus u still nid to use ur heart to feel. deny ur heart or cloud ur heart wif sum things tt will hang u on for years n ull be clouded. ull keep tinkin sth's missing. well den after ure successful in work its ur turn to do wad u realli want. travel round the world. go n c wad u realli want to do sumthings which uve always told urself it can never be done even doh how much i wanted to do it n pple keep stopping u. n now im old ill still do it. it may even be lazing around for the rest of ur life in a meadows or it may be an extreme sport or den there r those hu still feel their definition of success in life is still all bot money n fame... but most pple hu dun even try to achieve complete success wif self n straightaway tink im moving in the right direction towards fame. when they've climbed the ladder so high, they look down n they realised they're afraid. cus when they're climbing they've always looked up, they never looked down. they listened to the biggies hu made it big 'corporate' but again these are lyk the men in the minefield. they never get another chance to live another life. they do haf another chance to cross the minefield again at tt age n under the watchful eyes of the soldiers(in reality they wuld be the pple hu criticise us frm makin it big to dropping down n pple ask y) but most never turned n lived their lives with a big breath kept within themselves. they died together wif it. but of cus in reality being rich was never tt bad. until u realised tis wasnt wad u lived for. yes it is to enjoy the ride of life but u enjoyed it? in a guilty manner? guilt doesnt haf to be all about doinn sumthing wrong lyk corruption or wad but the worst guilt comes from deceiving urself. nt doin wad u realli want to do n deceiving urself tryin ur best not to tink bot it n most r successful u noe, in forgetting bot wad they realli want to do. cus tis are their thots so much so they became the truth for them. yea subconsciousness n consciousness these kinds of things but u nid not put it in a scientific way to feel it. as ive said feel wif ur heart. again, most pple will say"yes i constantly feel wif my heart n tis is wad i want to do..." but they still feel their heart is in a pain. still clouded. far from anything at all. they mite as well not live. but die with no such guilt den ur successful in life. isnt tts wad living all bout? being successful in life? n u all have been blinded all these while: tt being successful in life means striking it big in ur work n getting known. being in the lime. success in self to success in work to success in life... dun wait till u reach ur deathbed b4 u start regretting. today u can say "tomorrow" but on ur deathbed u cant say "in my next life". tis means tis is it. now or never lyk tt singer put it.

IF U DUN UNDERSTAND WAD THE ABOVE MEANS... DEN UR MOST PROBABLY NOT ONE OF THOSE HU HAF ACHIEVED SUCCESS WIF SELF. BUT EVEN IF U DO, UR NOT NECESSARILY ONE EITHER. IN FACT IN MY WHOLE LIFE, IVE NEVER MET MORE THAN A HANDFUL OF THESE PEOPLE. THESE R THE PEOPLE HU INSPIRED ME TO TAKE THE TIME TO UNDERSTAND. N THE STRANGE THING IS THAT THESE PEOPLE R STRANGERS BUT AS I TOLD U, U CULD SENSE IT IN SUM CASES CLOSE TO IMMEDIATE. IM SHARING TIS CUS I TINK WIN-WIN, I WANT U TO UNDERSTAND AS WELL. THIS IS FOR THOSE HU TINK SO HARD N FEEL SO CONFUSED AS TO WADS MISSING BUT NEVER LISTENED TO OTHERS EXCEPT URSELF. JUST LYK SUM OF UR PARENTS HU ALWAYS WANTED TO UNDERSTAND U BUT NEVER LISTENED TO U. UR THE NEXT GENERATION OF PARENTS HU R GOIN TO MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE. ANYWAY ILL STILL PUT UP A SUMMARY FOR THOSE HU R TOO LAZY OR DUN UNDERSTAND MY LANGUAGE:

SUMMARY IS EVEN THOUGH U MIGHT BE FEELING UR GOING IN THE CORRECT DIRECTION, U MAY ACTUALLY BE DECEIVING URSELF. BUT UVE ALWAYS KEPT UP WIF TT THOT FOR A FEW YEARS N MADE IT INTO THE 'TRUTH' FOR URSELF. MAYBE U SHLD TRY GOING WITH SUCCESS WITH SELF FIRST, DEN SUCCESS WIF WORK, DEN SUCCESS WIF LIFE. AFTER UVE ACHIEVED SUCCESS WIF SELF, ULL BECOME SECURE ABOUT URSELF(NOT FROM UR DREAMS OR UR WORK OR UR MATERIALS) N MANY OTHER THINGS ULL FEEL GOOD LYK SUMWHAT NATURALKN NOT HIDING. MANY PPLE HIDE FROM THIS N THE THING IS THEY DUN EVEN KNOW IT. AFTER DEN U GO FOR UR SO CALLED SUCCESS IN WORK. DEN ULL REALLY CUT OFF THE PAIN IN UR HEART. DEN SUCCESS WIF LIFE: WAD U REALLI WANT TO DO. U ONLY HAF ONE LIFE. THERE IS NO CHANCE FOR TRIAL. CHOOSE THE PATH WIF WISDOM. N ONE LAST THING... U HAF TO BECOME THE OPPOSITE OF SUMTHING TT U WANT TO BECOME IN ORDER TO REALLI BECOME WAD U REALLI WANT TO BE. FOR EXAMPLE IF U R DILIGENT I WUN CONSIDER U AS DILIGENT AT ALL UNLESS U WERE ONCE LAZY DEN U BECAME DILIGENT. I RESPECT U WITHOUT DOUBT.

IF UR TINKING I CULD GO PUBLISH SUM BOOM ON THIS, GO EAT SHIT CUS U STILL TOO DUMB TO UNDERSTAND WAD IVE WRITTEN N AT THE FRONT PART I TOLD U NOT TO READ IT ALREADY.

n no i not pissed now or wad. jus emphasized cus i lazy to use the bold or wad. actually i dint wan to share tis wif u all but yea... as i said. a few years back i culd get any kind of grades i wanted. but i realised i was foolish enough to go for all that u-probably-noe-wad future without understanding myself first.

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